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The wound is the place where the Light enters you. Rumi And so it begins – the Light is offering herself in her fullness today. I must thank her for she thaws the rigidness in my bones, the stiffness of winter. I don’t know what to offer her in return; all I have is thisContinue reading “Litha”

*This is Part II of dairy entries related to my story with narcissistic abuse. For Part I click here I have come to terms with the possibility that I may never be in love again. If in love consists of a deep forgetfulness of self, or such longing to merge fully and completely into another,Continue reading “For those that love too much – Part II*”

I . The world is asleep within me; in a deep comforting slumber my bones crackle with weariness. I’ve been numb. As if this body, these arms, thighs and the muscle and bone, these fingers and skin  the turns and undulations of my hips, my back heavy –   they are no longer capable to graspContinue reading “Hiraeth”

I search for the marvellous  Like a marionette whose strings are pulled in opposite directions – dancing between two worlds  belonging neither here nor there.   I want to belong here: to sink my feet into earth and ground myself with vulnerability;  I want to feel it all deeply – to awaken to the curiosityContinue reading “Calling”

Sometimes there’s a sadness – quiet  brewing. I wish I could see what others grasp in me.  My eyes hold an ocean  blue and with purpose.  My back holds stories no books have the spine to carry*.  Sometimes  there’s a strong pull towards the undesirable.  As if ghosts from my past urge me  to goContinue reading “Brokenness”

Shame is lodged under my fingernails like soil. I’m not going to lie, on some days I refuse to remember my past. But the more I run away and the more I hide it deep inside my skin –  the more it grows and expands, the more it screams back at me wanting to beContinue reading “I love you, I’m here”

  i arrived at a place where my darkness is reassuring.  no longer astray, i take each breath with anticipation.  for years my shadows yearned for my attention. i was too ashamed to let them speak  and so i silenced them with the buzz of a stale existence.  i buried my shadows deep down withContinue reading “In fluo”

the sea teaches me how to love myself.  how to cherish each and every imperfection.  I watched closely the waves in an uneven dance,  unsettled.  today  I sat with my darkness, quietly –  with those fathomless faults that surface on some days.  the sea was forceful, demanding my attention.   she churned and brought toContinue reading “Kintsugi”

The moon has always been there, lodged like a splinter inside my chest – she kept me safe.  I’ve returned, more present than ever before. I flow through my arms and down,  in descending motion my body is a tree trunk,  my arms are branches,  my legs roots.  The moon is full again tonight  herContinue reading “Chandra”

Like how I get it that your roots are darkened by circumstance, sadness etched into your skin from birth. Yet you never escaped and instead clung to shadows like they gave you some sort of comfort.  I cannot tell you how –  I hid inside my music and broke my fingers on the piano  hopingContinue reading “Things that I cannot tell you”